Chicago is brain-warpingly hot. Today I drove a mini-van through the leafy green suburb of Naperville, settled in 1831, with the air-conditioning on high. Shiny children passed by on their bicycles, squinty men in shorts dragged brown paper bags full of trimmed branches to their garages, and my cat hid in the shadows under the deck, panting for what might well be, the first time in his life. My aunt's mini-van slid around the corners on invisible tracks, the drizzle steamed.
It's melt into the tarmac hot, and if you've seen An Inconvenient Truth and passed a cool June in San Francisco, this sort of heat might seem worrying. You know, the end of the world is nigh and it's basically all my fault, sort of thing--although ditching my twelve year old VW in Portland with my brother and becoming a pedestrian again is a step in the right direction, there's nothing like finding out about how wasteful and excessive you are, to make your life suddenly feel wasteful and excessive. This last part is especially true if you're unemployed and eating with the fortitude of a seasonally starved female penguin.
I wonder how to negotiate the pleasure and the guilt of consuming so much and in such luxury, when there are both the proverbial and actual starving children in (insert whichever place your parents used to say, India for me), when there are bigger things happening near and far. Around me, the polar ice-caps are melting, husbands are kissing their wives good bye and heading to front lines, and my greedy eyes are fixed on dinner. Alinea to be specific. That greystone in Chicago's swank Lincoln Park neighbourhood, so unassuming I drove past it twice before I noticed it, all shining glass and steel, all dark wood and red lilies, and I almost forgot about the horrifying, haunting image of a bare, snowless Mt. Kilimanjaro. Such is the power of a good dinner--takes the edge right off the end of the world, so to speak.



